April 26, 2009

Nomads Reunion

A full year and a season. That was just precisely how long several dozen Warriors from a tribe of over ten thousand had been gone. More than a year, but not quite a year and a half. Their return was marked by the melting of snows and the budding blooms of spring. Most of the men sported full shaggy beards and a crispness to their clothes that might've enabled a pair of trousers to stand and walk away on their own. But none of them seemed weary or battle worn. If anything, they were more full of piss and vinegar than ever before.. as if somehow quite exhilarated by the raids.. moreso than the overabundance of spoils carted in at least a hundred wagons. Maybe more.

Within a good twenty miles yet from the vast Caravans of the tribes, their dust could be seen as a thick, opaque cloud on the horizon moving slowly southward. And among them there was general drunkenness and merriment.. bawdy songs sung horribly off key amidst a few girlish screams and squeals. Bola races were perhaps one of the best ways to break in stubborn new slave girls.

[Sings To the Sky]:
"Ubara, then you admit freely you have seen no sign of the Ubar, nor have had any word from in for a full cycle of seasons?" The question had bite into it, or maybe it was T'zuri's own guilt coloring the tone.. but it felt like the men sitting upon the Great Pavilion blamed her for Fonce's disappearance. The drums had no more than announced his claiming of her before the warrior simply vanished from the camp, never to be seen again. "That is correct, Jurgaghan. I have no knowledge of his whereabouts." She holds the man's narrowed gaze as long as she can before the embarrassment creeps up as a soft pinkening of her cheeks and she is forced to look away. Jurgaghan grunts impatiently, stroking a hand through the greasy shock of his hair before he addresses her again. "So you have no idea if he lives.. or not?" Out of respect, these interviews had been held off, but now as the anniversary of the Ubar's dissapearance has come full circle, a hard decision must be made.

The men sitting cross-legged in knee-deep furs were of the First Wagon or lines that held impressive influence over the affairs of the Tribe. The Ubar's young bride, barely eighteen summers kneels off to the side of the tattered gray hide which served as a throne to the leader of one of the most powerful nations ever to exist. She would not dare sit where a king had. Her small hands press to the top of her thighs with the rest of her legs folded beneath her. She flinches again, looking back to "Six" and shakes her head. "No."

[Kazhuye]:
One girl clearly outran the others, zigzagging across the flat ground between her felled opponents when they'd been tripped and brought down hard by the whirling stone and leather thong bolas. "HA!" One of the Warriors who'd sported a brazenly proud grin shot right out from the clusterfuck mounted on a proud racing beast with notched ears and chased the one girl down who'd managed to slip right past the whirling bolas undaunted. Yet she too, would land with a hard splat, belly down in the dirt while the Warrior hogtied her limbs and threw her over the saddle sideways. Not only had his slave won the race..

but the rest of them who'd lost, were forfeited to him in the wager. None of the other fellows looked to happy about their losses. Yet it was nothing that a half a barrel of looted paga wouldn't cure when it was tapped and shared. For the time being, the girl who'd beat out all the others won the luxury of riding the next twenty miles or so, belly over a kaiila's saddle.. while the rest of them rejoined their coffle chains and walked alongside their new owner's kaiila and loot-stuffed wagons.

[Sings To the Sky]:
Two men spoke aside to eachother and T'zuri colored more. There was no question that a woman could never take the place of a Ubar, but technically.. she is the mate of one, especially after the public announcement of her marriage. Yet everyone is curious if the union was consummated before or after her groom had flown the coop, especially the one man who stands with both shoulders thrown back and a wolfish smile curling cold upon his lips. Kurt of the Kassar cannot hear the proceedings from where he stands. He is too far away to catch voices but it is T'zuri herself and all her squirming that clues him in on how the interrogation has progressed. And since he has a legitimate stake in this, he is allowed to remain close to know the outcome all the sooner. "And was your claiming con.. su.." A thrall has come to bend over at Jurgaghan's ear, whispering excitedly. He makes a motion with his arm towards the Northern horizon.

Heads turn to crane for a look in that direction, including T'zuri. A thick billow of dust has gathered there, building on itself until the dark, clouds dip high into the mesmerizing blue of the Plain's Sky. The Singer lifts slowly to her booted feet, standing on tip toe to try and see between two wagons.

[Kazhuye]:
Nearer and nearer to the massive caravan of thousands of wagons all brightly colored like a gigantic jewel in the middle of the Plains come the few dozen Tuchuk raiders. Leading them is one fierce-ass looking Warrior, squinting his eyes against the bright noonday sun. His kaiila senses something in the air a good ways off.. and kicks upward on his hind legs with a few slobbering snorts. And as his front claws come crashing down again into the soft green, newly sprouted sod, the chain of naked girls is yanked forward rather abruptly, sending them tumbling head over heal upon one another. "WOAHH THERE.. woahh!" The Warrior shouts, giving a terse yank to the leather reign in order to get the large, silk haired beast under control.

Several of the girls screamed yet again, rolling this and that to escape being trampled under the kaiila's feet as he reared upward and danced about several times before crashing down again and again.

[Sings To the Sky]:
Was it a raid upon their camp? At first the young woman's heart leaps with alarm wondering if the bosk were in danger of being taken by a rival tribe. The bosk are essential for the Tribe's survival, absolutely essential. But as she look around, she sees no warrior grabbing for his lance or bola. Instead, there is a buzz of excitement and curiosity. "Ubara!" Old Chinua wheezing is marked with impatience. It brings T'zuri right back to the happenings on the Ubar's dias. "Are ya a virgin or aren't ya? Yer holding back the decision of these proceedings by not admitting to bein' one or the other!" Jurgaghan lifts a hand. "You are assuming she was untouched prior to being claimed. Better to ask if she lay with the Ubar, consummating their union." With a loud snort, Gan makes himself known. "What does it matter? Do you think some young girl's word should be the end of this? Send her to the hags and have her checked!"

Frozen to the spot, T'zuri looked to each man as he spoke, her dark brown eyes darting back and forth. She couldn't get any more red in the face and had the wooden dias opened up to swallow her whole, she would have swooned in gratitude. "That's it. Have her checked!!" All these many months, the Singer hadn't wanted to admit her shame. She had not seen Fonce on her claiming day. There were only a thousand or so who would vindictively cheer, knowing this. As the heated discussion gears up without her, it is her soft voice that cuts through the deeper timbres of the men. "We did .. not.. connsumate it. He was gone, I think.. before the drums sounded." And with that, she walks off the dias, her little boots carrying her swiftly away.

[Kazhuye]:
The kaiila was the fastest on the entire Plains, and quite well-known for his raucous, untamed antics. He'd not only been owned by the Warrior currently mounted upon his saddle.. but also that same Warrior's father. And the damn beast had not changed one iota, nor slowed his pace in all these years! "WOAHHHH NECESSITY! WOAAHHH!" In fact, the harder the Warrior drew back upon the leather strap, the more forcefully the beast pulled against it.. as if he scarcely noticed the bit wedged up between his jowls so tightly, it was liable to snap them right on the hinge.

When he reared up all eleven or so feet again, he crashed right down within a fraction of an inch of crushing one of the slave girl's skull.. managing only to claw the side of her head and rip out most of her hair on that side.. painfully by the roots. The girl screamed out as she pressed a hand to her bleeding head. "Hey, Cornwall!" One of the other men shouted, laughing while he pointed at the girl on the ground. "I reckon he'll be given her back to ya, now!" Several of the men laughed as their own mangy beasts reared up and danced about in the frenzy of fresh blood drawn. Yet within the next two seconds..

Necessity shot off like a canon with the Warrior merely hanging on to the reign for dear life. The pair of them rode like the wind.. and had, since before the Warrior in the saddle could even walk. Along beside them was a coffle chain of about eight girls in all.. being dragged through the mud and grass upon their bared bellies. All screaming and crying at the top of their lungs. "Now there's somethin' ya just don't see everyday!" The men slapped their knees in laughter again.. racing to see which of them would scoop up the poor hogtied wench who'd been thrown over the saddle on her belly.. once she fell off. Yet as they raced for the caravan of thousands..that bola race winner seemed blessed with luck that day.. for she never did fall and hit the ground a second time.

[Sings To the Sky]:
Jurgaghan grinds his teeth, watching her go. For these many months the Ubara has kept to herself, not venturing father than the tiny inner circle of wagons where some of the most esteemed elderly women of the First Wagon live. A sanctuary, if you will. She has no idea of the political strife happening in light of the vacuum of power Fonce left. The deficit of a Ubar gone would right itself. His place filled and soon. The Tribe is too resiliant for it not to.. it is only a question where the young woman will end up. "Does the Ubara's sudden departure mean what I think it does?" A cold, self-congratulating voice came behind the Jurgaghan and all the others, causing them to turn slightly in his direction. Jurgaghan grunts, only half nodding as he leaps down off the dias. "We'll see." was all the outsider got directly but it was music to Kurt's ears when he overhears. "Declare the Ubara's marriage.. null and void. I want this over with." T'zuri fled. She didn't cry as she ran.

How long she would be able to hold up the fort on her emotions is hard to say as her eyes are sparkling with hot, wet tears. She has come to terms with the painful fact that Fonce will never return. Not ever. His disappearance on the night of their claiming was a cruel strike.. and as time marched on, any excuse she could give the man had slowly been peeled away. He left her, plain and simple.. in a lurch. "How will ou feed Letti and Mama, T'zuri.. you've managed to stay a part of the First Wagon's all this time but how will you care for them now.. Stupid, Silly girl.. you should have.. done something.. " She could have broken her own hymen.. perhaps. Lied that Fonce had come to her in the night.. several times. She could have done many things.. but T'zuri isn't that sort. Flying up the rows, she keeps her head ducked before emerging on the fringe of the wagon's gathering. She wants to be alone.

[Kazhuye]:
As for the rest of the Raiders, they kept their pace at a brisk mosey, left with the brunt of all the wagons and loot.. while Kazhuye and a small handful of others raced on ahead. They were so damn fierce looking when they rode that way.. bearing down upon some hapless enemy until he was surrounded on all sides. Lances drawn as they closed in for the kill. And of course that too, was great sport. Irregardless whether the prey turned and fought valiently.. or fled like a coward. But this time.. their lances were not thrust outward for battle.. but raised instead for victory. They were home.. at long last! Home! On the outskirts of the wagons, several rushed out to greet the prodigal with cheers and dancing.

Several in the crowds, even gathered there around the First Wagons turn and hurry to the outer most part on the north end. Too thick to part, even when some short little gal butts her head right into their tightly knit, unified force.. because she's not lookin' where she's goin'! "Oh, pardon me for standing in the way of where you are butting your head." Typical of Tuchuk humor. "C'mon!" Says one of the other women, linking arms with her before another fellow takes a head-butt to the gut. The first was quite winded.. but he's laughing none the less. "The Raiders have returned!" Oddly enough, they didn't even realize the girl was the Ubara. Few had seen her face in so long, they might've forgotten what she looked like!

[Sings To the Sky]:
Her hair is braided. The thick tail bounces at her low back, small lavendar and cherry beads dangling from leather straps are bright against the dark sheen of the woven tresses. A tiny ring of gold glints at her nose, pretty in its simple lines against her darker almond skin. Deep in her thoughts and desperate to make it to the stream where she might cry in peace, she walks right into a crowd and runs into a wall of human flesh. "Ohh!!" she cries out, laughing at little between sniffles when she's grabbed by the arm and led further into the labyrinth of cavorting people. For the first time, it soaks in past her own grievances. Something is really happening here. "What is it?? A merchant caravan?" She laughed, wiping at her eyes when she thought no one noticed. They are still quite wet, even if she doesn't feel like crying so much anymore. "We get them all the time. Has the whole bloomin' tribe gone crazy??" Another soft giggle and a shake of her head.

Behind her, a bit back, two greyish streaks follow in T'zuri's wake although they keep to the shadows beneath the wagons or sticking to the tall grass as she is tugged along. Never did they allow her to get too far ahead of them.

[Kazhuye]:
Met head on by a swollen crowd of a few hundred men, women, and children.. and even some of the more pushy slaves, Necessity's claws gouged out deep ravines in the moist ground as he came to a skidding halt.. nearly throwing his rider over head. Now the chain of girls who'd been dragged a good five miles or more, looked a tad windblown and mussed, to say the least.

Ok.. they looked like shit. Truly. They were covered in mud, bleeding, broken.. and looked pretty damn mangy. One of the tribal fellows who'd been at the front of the line to greet the returning Warriors from their year-long journey.. burst into laughter after getting a good look at the girls in the muddied, minstrel faces. "Hot damn! They sure got ass-ugly wimmin up North!"

[Sings To the Sky]:
A tidal spray of dirt and grit came flying up from beneath the kaiila's claws and the little singer throws a hand up to protect her eyes. There are several bodies between herself and the rider and despite how he is mounted atop the cantakerous beast, she doesn't recognize him since he's turned away. Giggling still when she hears a nearby fellow comment on the subpar beauty of the warrior's haul, she calls out with a grin. "Serves you right to get a passle of ugly women, Tuchuk! Don't you know the prettiest ones are right here, on the Plains?" It feels good to razz a man even if the taunt might hit a little to close to home for her. Laughing, she tugs the other woman who'd linked their arms right in front of her, playfully hiding behind in case the warrior has something to say in return! She's small enough to disappear!

[Kazhuye]:
"He grabbed up all the ugliest ones he could find!" Now of course the other Warriors.. the very ones who'd lost their slaves to him in the bola races just a few hours ago..joined in the din of laughter and roasting, offering up no admission of their own guilt! "Hey, Kazhuye! Even that ugly kaiila of yours has a purtier kisser!" Several of the woman had by now, managed to rise to their feet and toss their heads back at the mockery with whatever was left of their pride and dignity.. most of which lay scattered about in the mud and bosk dung over the last several miles! Strange at it was, the one who'd been bound and tossed over the saddle on her belly, was in the worst shape of all! "Ahh shut up!" Kazhuye shouted back over all the laughter as he jumped from his mount to the ground below. "They were purty enough when you all lost 'em in wagers and you was cryin' over it like a buncha girls!"

It only took a moment for the jeers in the crowd to shift directions.. moreso when one of the mud covered girls tried to run back to her original owner.. only to be caught red-handed by Mrs. Cornwall! And there she was, boxing the man's ears as if he'd never been gone a single day! "I knew it! You stinkin' sloppy drunk, bosk-ass!"

[Sings To the Sky]:
Coming out from behind the woman, T'zuri snickers, a hand over her lips while she watches Tuchukks at their finest. It wasn't anything unusual for one of their own to be heckled to the point of pain, everyone chuckling, even the 'victim'. Looking up at him, the singer feels a strange pinch in her stomach as if she's swallowed a warm and its wrigglin' and shimmin' away deep inside.. and then someone calls him by name. Kazhuye??? Her lips part as she gapes, standing there stock still while the rest of the world keeps dancing along at a fevered pitch. Why there was Mrs. Cornwall cutting through the crowd, laying into the man before he even got down all the way from his saddle. "Kazhuye?" She whispers. No way he could have heard her not getting his bell rung by his neighbor lady-friend and with all the raucous uproar. She'd dreamed him dead. He'd been killed not in battle but taken violently by the Sky, leaving her to mourn him for more than a year now. Dead.. but that had to be him.

Beneath the beard, gruff, and grime. She takes a side step, refusing to allow the milling bodies to impede her peeking but needing to see more to believe her eyes.

[Kazhuye]:
Lucretia Cornall. The meanest old nag there ever was! She reached up and yanked her man by the ear as she barreled her way through the laughing crowd and led him home. "Aww.. come on, Lucretia," Cornall whined. "I thought of you the whole entire time. I swear it!" Several men clapped him on the back as they passed them by, chuckling at the hen-pecked Warrior. "Oh! So I remind you of a whore so ugly she looks like a bosk's ass? Is that it?" Cornwall had a size fourteen foot, which fit real nicely in his mouth, ninety-nine percent of the time. "Go easy on him, Lucretia," they said with mock sympathy. But just like old times, he was likely to be camping out before the dung fire twenty paces from his own wagon, until he drank himself right under it. The woman was heartless!

And for a few seconds, the red sea of tightly packed bodies had parted.. just long enough for him to turn and lock gazes on a pair of brown eyes on the other side.. before the sea closed up once again. Five thousand women or more, accounted for in the vast Tuchuk population.. it could not have been her. No way. Kazhuye reached up and rubbed a bit of sand and debris from his face.. and particularly his eyes, before he turned to gather up the scraggly remains of his wager wins. Five out of eight of them had pulled their wits together enough to shake their hips and lift their muddied chins real high. Like they were Tatrixes or something. The other three.. and the fourth who was still bound.. seemed in a complete daze. Kazhuye bent and shoved his shoulder into the last one's belly before hefting her upward upon it. It was enough to finally knock her out cold. "Run, slaves!" He held the chain, but expected them to run ahead of him. "Come on, Necessity."

Aways back the wagons full of loot were still rolling toward the vast Tuchuk camp. The spoils were to be divied that night around a great bon fire.. a flagrant waste of precious bosk dung, to be sure. But it was cause for celebration! The Raiders had finally come home.

[Sings To the Sky]:
Had he seen her? T'zuri could have sworn their eyes met but as Kazhuye is gone with her next surprised blink, she begins to doubt. The urge for a closer look is undeniable. Using Necessity's great, shaggy head as a guide, she flanks the man and his beast, only stepping out from the throng of people where the kaiila will conceal her approach. She can hear the man she thought dead talking to the owned women and to his mount, his voice striking chords of rememberance that confuse her as much as the fact does.. that he isn't dead. She reaches out to touch Necessity's side, knowing it was suicide to startle one of the predatory beasts but needing a grounding point so badly.. the solidity of the animal beneath her hand, the pelt warm from the steady stream of blood moved by its great, pumping heart. She thinks about calling his name, but when she peeks beneath Necessity's long, powerful neck.. Kazhuye is carrying a woman. Shyly, she hangs back again, walking alongside his kaiila but where he cannot see her.

[Kazhuye]:
Necessity followed along when called.. because he felt like it. Not because he was an obediently trained kaiila with his two notched ears. Oh hell no! And one would think he'd not know the difference, having been gone so long. But out of that large crowd pressing in on all sides, the great beast bobbed his massive head up and down as his tail swatted everything from behind in a three-sixty radius. He slobbered. He snorted. He made ugly chuffing sounds. He had not forgotten the little two-legged filly.. who was bunted flat to the ground the moment she drew back out of his beastly tunnel vision.

[Sings To the Sky]:
She should have expected it. Honestly, she should have. But the truth was, the beginnings of a soft smile bloomed on T'zuri's lips, her small hand rubbing at Necessity's side, when the beast's great head came swinging back and she was knocked clean to the ground. "UFF!" She went down hard, rolling as the animal's power and musculature far exceeds her own slight stature and well.. Necessity might just be happy to see her too. T'zuri tastes dirt and grass for she is soon covered in it from soft leather skirt and boots to the top of her dark head. There are even a few grass blades stuck in her nose ring! She sputters and spits, while pulling herself slowly up to a sitting position, curious if she was all in one piece. "Greetings to you too, you flea-bitten kailla, you." She starts giggling.

[Kazhuye]:
Several paces ahead by now, Kazhuye turns to glance back once he realizes the sound of his kaiila's hot breath is no longer just beyond his shoulder. Damn animal, obviously doesn't remember the way home, nor the constant formation of wagons, despite their astronomical munbers. He's just about to whistle a high pitched sound around his curled finger and thumb.. when he sees that very same girl as before.. only this time, she's getting herself up off the ground. "Singer? Is that you?" Of course it's her. She hasn't changed one bit. Yet no sooner does he acknowledge her, the Year Keeper glances around and slowly backs away. For he remembers.. she'd given her consent to join the Ubar in a companioning.. not long before Kazhuye had left the Harigga on a year long raiding expidition to.. well.. way up north where the ugly women lived!

[Sings To the Sky]:
With a little chuff of breath, she blows the tiny flecks of prairie grass from her nose ring, both hands brushing down the front of her vest, blouse, and skirt to help with more of the same. Necessity never does anything half-assed and she is a mess.. which really wasn't how she'd like for Kazhuye's first impression to be. A grass stained, dusty woman with bits of greenish-yellow sticking into her hair. She looks up slowly, knowing damn well before the Year Keeper even speaks that she's been caught red-handed. She stares for the longest time, awed, for her dream of his death couldn't have been more real. "You're alive! I don't beleive it. .I thought.. I thought were gone forever." Small boots took wing and the small woman runs over to wrap Kazhuye into a big hug. Big for her, anyhow. Her arms wrap his waist as she tries to squeeze the dickens out of him, partly for putting her through all that. "How could you let me think you were dead, Kazhuye??.. Kazhuye.. oh great Skies, you've come back to me."

[Kazhuye]:
"Well of course I'm alive.. T'zuri," he'd said about two seconds after being ambushed by the vertically challenged Singer. Which caught him off guard for some odd reason. Must have been due to the fact that the last time he'd seen her.. she had let him know she was mighty in love. With some other fella.. who just only happened to be the Ubar, too. One whom he half expected to be sneakin' up behind him right about now, too.. for public impropriety with his wife. "What'd you go an' think that for, Singer? I've been out plundering all the enemies from here to Venna." Not that he expected a Tuchuk gal to know anything at all about any cities beyond Turia. But he said it all matter-of-fact as he reached around behind and tried to pluck her fingers loose. "You're gonna get me in trouble, little girl."

The slaves naturally.. not counting the one still draped like dead weight over his shoulder.. were much too down-trodden to care whether this other girl made passes at the one who owned them. As far as they were concerned..all the Tuchuk men looked exactly alike. And they all smelled like bosk shit, too!

[Sings To the Sky]:
Now that she knew it was him.. him.. T'zuri was flabbergasted with happiness. He wasn't dead! The lightening strike.. seeing him melded to his beloved Necessity, all that had been part of a bad nightmare and not real at all. She hugs him tighter with her small arms, overjoyed if the radiant smile on her face is any indication. "Well, you went off and left without so much as a 'Goodbye, T'zuri', so I guess that might be the reasoning behind me thinking you dead. But you're not dead.. you just lost your common sense when you left." Her fingers are pulled back but she manages to poke him in the side with one small finger. She really ought to be furious with the man and off nursing her own hurt for he was one of two men who'd abandoned her on the same day. "Whatcha mean, in trouble, Kazhuye? You're not allowed to greet friends anymore?" His gruff demeanor didn't phase the Singer, who knew beneath the gruff exterior was someone who meant what they said and said what they meant.

"Dang it, you're a sight for sore eyes." She untangles from him, stepping back a little so she can clearly see his face.

[Kazhuye]:
"You're a married woman now, T'zuri," he said.. letting the mere sound of it roll of his tongue so slowly that.. for a moment it sounded like a foreign language. It was strange how that happened now and again, leaving you to not recognize your very own words. "And married women don't go around getting too chummy with men." He glanced about once again, suddenly awash in a memory of her falling-down-drunk.. and stark naked, too! "I got me all these gals I gotta figure out what to do with," he gestured up ahead to the scraggly wenches still covered head to toe in black mud. What was he thinking?? One woman was enough to drive a fellow entirely insane. Why, look at poor Cornwall! And just to convince himself, he glanced over at the man's wagon. You could still hear Lucretia hollarin' at him, too.

[Sings To the Sky]:
Kazhuye could write a limerick about how to make a woman's face fall in twenty words or less. Had she been happily companioned, she would have swatted him with a teasing follow up about how he better keep his own nose clean around her, being the Ubar's woman and all. But the fact is, a debate was roaring through the first wagons on whether she was hitched at all.. being that she didn't have relations with the man in question. Her lips part as she realizes that fresh from a lengthy raiding trip, Kazhuye hasn't heard the rampant rumors of the Ubar's disappearance. Nor any about her. "Alright then, Year Keeper. I'm sorry to have slowed you down." She said it softly, walking past him and his loot with as quick strides as her short legs will carry her. Two giani cats suddenly scamper up to zealously follow her skirt tail.

[Kazhuye]:
The gianis were fairly large cats.. the size of small mountain lions.. and for a moment he was drawn aback as he went for his quivas strapped at his hips. They looked like they were attacking the Singer. "T'zuri." He spoke very calmly, never once taking his brown eyes from the ferocious critters. They looked pretty enough to make a small jacket out of.. or.. maybe just a couple a hats, the more he thought on it. "Stop right there.. and don't move" By now, both blades are drawn upward at shoulder height, and are expertly flipped around in a nimble dance over his fingers.
[ ... ]

December 30, 2007

Unfinished Business

Kazhuye
Have you ever just felt like everything was put back exactly the way it should be? Like everything in life was as it was meant to be? I've always felt I had everything I ever needed; ever wanted. And now, after a slight wrong turn has righted itself... I feel that way again.

Just before dawn I am untethering my kaiila and we are riding all the way out past the furthest herds of bosk. Further even than that. How often does a man receive wise counsel, only to never return and give thanks?


I intend to return to the Sky... and pay such an homage. For I have decided I no longer hate the Sky.
I never really did.
[ ... ]

December 29, 2007

Ina

I met a woman last night who came to visit one of the older women who lives nearby. She introduced herself as a Singer... and even treated those who were still out and about with a song. I had to kick Cornwall awake though when she finished... so the man would give her the proper accolades. Which he did. And then he fell over sideways again, dead to the world. The man likes to drink a bit.

"Ina Krimsonhwk," she said at last, introducing herself as she crouched down by me. Though she seemed rather interested in my kaiila. Who was way over there... gnawing on the iron chains that kept him bound.

She pulled out some kinda treat and made gesture to go and feed it to him, though I cautioned her not to. Necessity gets cantankerous all of a sudden for no reason... he was liable to bite the woman. And I... think... maybe I ought to watch him a bit more closely from now on.

I sometimes wonder what he'd do without me, as I have no son to pass him on to.

But Ina didn't seem to mind, as she handed me the treat instead. I looked at it for a few moments before licking it. Just once. It tasted sweet.

After awhile, the woman got up to go and I waved to her. I wonder who she is.
[ ... ]

December 23, 2007

Not Exactly Snooker

"Maybe she won't notice, eh?" I winced with a broad grin as one pair of giani both bit and scratched, snarling a ruckus about being stuffed into a bag. And I finally admitted to them that they were a gift for a woman who'd recently lost her pet frevet.

"She's a woman. 'Course she'll notice," Geiger spat upon the ground and laughed while watching, though he never bothered to help me round up the pair of kittens that I'd laid a trap for and caught in the snowy wilds. Now with fur standing on end and hissing madly, the others joined in the guffaws and laughter. It was widely agreed upon that no matter how badly scratched and clawed I was just now... trying to fool a woman would be a thousand times worse.

"She said it had fur and claws and... round ears." I wanted to believe the Singer would accept that I found her Snooker, or the nearest good substitute. Not only him, but a little mate to make a pair of Snookers.

Once we reached the wagons, I parted paths with Geiger and Cornwall, who went on home. I didn't however, but turned instead for the First Wagons, holding a coarse woven sack off to the side of Necessity's saddle. All the while he kept turning and snapping at the bag... with all it's curious snarling and claws and hissing inside.

"No, Necessity. It's not for you." This I said with a wide grin as I reached the First Fires and immediately corraled the blue haired slave woman away from the others. T'zuri was on the far side of the fire, talking with some fellow... though I'd wanted to drag out the suspense.

I swatted the blue haired slave's backside with the sack, chuckling as the little claws raked her ass a little bit. She sure looked scared! "Here," I said, handing her the sack. "Go on and open it."

The fellow across on the other side of the fire started hollaring, and at first I wasn't much paying attention... til I realized he was hollaring at me, demanding to know why I rode a kaiila. Then demanding I release the blue haired slave. I told him I'd send her right on over just as soon as I was done with her.
Which would not be but a few moments longer I was certain, once she let the cats out of the bag.

Suddenly the fellow came barrelling over trying to make a grab for me... followed immediately by some ten or more people. All shouting and screaming as if all hell had broke loose. There was another shout, ordering me to clear out... leave the First Wagons! And not soon after that about twenty lancers showed up, all with lance tips aimed at keeping me from moving. Though once they lowered their weapons... I drove my boot heel into Necessity's flank and we took off.

The Singer never got her gift. And I suppose it's just as well. Cornwall and Geiger were probably right that she'd never accept two giani kitties as a poor substitute for a lost pet.
[ ... ]

December 22, 2007

Hunting For Frevets

I wasn't the only one baffled and scratching my head as I laid several traps in the snow while my drinking buddies... drank. And gave advice. "Move that one further away, Kazhuye. They might be smart buggers and realize you got all these traps too close together."

By sundown and no luck, the others were about ready to ride back home. It was a fruitless dumb thing to sit out in the snow all day and freeze their asses off... for some kinda rodent. They couldn't make no sense of it. And I of course, wasn't divulging the reason either. They might've wailed on me for being all smitten. You know... beat some sense into me or something.

"You all go on ahead." And no sooner had I said that, one of the traps snapped and kicked up a few snow flurries. It was followed by a small feral... hiss and growl. Not one... but two of them!

"What the fuck was that?" Of course, now they were suddenly interested. And it was Cornwall who was the first one over to the sprung trap. Chuckling once his curiosity was sated.

Geiger and I soon caught up, as the three of us stood looking down. "Looks like ya got you a pair of giani kitties, Kazhuye." He slapped me on the back, forcing a cough from my lungs as he laughed and slapped his thigh.
[ ... ]

December 21, 2007

Stand By Your Man

"You might better warn him to be sleepin' with one eye open, Singer."

"What do you mean, Kazhuye?" She looked at me funny... as if I knew something I should not know. Then again it's not everyday that some back wagon plot is hatched to kill off the Ubar. It's just... not done.


And who was I to take advantage of some other man's calamity? If she knew I'd been in on a conspiracy, I do not think I would be any nearer to capturing her heart.

"I mean, I think someone has it in for him. I had a visitor the other day who said..." Funny I couldn't rightly think of what he'd said, not without implicating myself in a dozen different ways. I surely didn't want the Singer goin' off thinkin' I liked her... not after it took me a week or more to finally remove my boot from my mouth.

T'zuri was a bit shocked that someone was aimin' to knock off her guardian as well as her love, though. And I urged her further still... to go and be with him. Lest some mishap befall the man while she is here with me. It would only serve to incriminate me further.

Suddenly she appologized for having yelled at me the other day, over the news about her frevet's alleged death. Now I ain't used to no kind of appologies from women, and it only made me feel all the more guilty over it. "I swear it, T'zuri... I'm gonna make it up to you. I swear it."

"You can take me shopping early in the morning. Soon, Kazhuye." I assumed so she could search for something to replace Snooker with. She turned and hurried off. And once again... I watched her go.

Goodbye, T'zuri.
[ ... ]

December 20, 2007

The Visitor

About a week later I had a vistor come seeking me at my own wagons. Calling out my name even. Rising from the other side of where Paenuria had blocked me while I sat on a small stool and milked her, I peered straight at some fellow I'd never seen before. It wasn't Kurt. Not even a Kassar at all.

"I am Kazhuye." Reaching down, I lifted the tin bucket while kicking the small stool out of my way. The fellow followed me to my wagon's steps and seated himself. I shared a bota of paga with him. I might have shared a handful of dirt as well... but I didn't sense that was why he'd come.

He never offered his name, but made a strange offer to me. Stranger the more I think on it. Essentially telling me that the Singer was mine. All I had to do was reach out and take her. Not even the Ubar would stand in my way, he said... more or less.

That's easier said than done. The last time I saw her... well... let's just say we parted on amicable terms. She loves another fellow. I've suspected it might be that Leather Worker Saresh, but I suppose in the end it doesn't matter who he is or not.

"How long do you need?" He asked me, regarding the length of time I felt it would take me to win the Singer's heart.

I cannot amend what has been done. Not unless by some stroke of luck I can find her lost pet. Deep down though, I am fairly certain Necessity ate him. "I imagine as long as it takes to find a frevet." I've since learned that they don't even exist in this part of the world.

The visitor finally left. Left me to ponder... what sort of coup he'd had planned. It all seemed rather
on the sly. Strange bargains made without the woman's guardian being in on it all. Made me think... perhaps the Ubar was in danger.
[ ... ]

December 15, 2007

Goodbye, Singer

It is hard... and not wise to charge a kaiila into battle when one's mind is filled with anything but pure focus. Mine was not focused at all. We sped right into the camp of the First Wagons, right past the Singer. And landed in a heap of splinters as Necessity struggled to regain his proud composure... while a pink painted wagon lay broken down with its front wheel broken clean off the axle.

When I turned my kaiila back, I dismounted and grabbed the woman by her shoulders, shaking her. "Are you courting, T'zuri? Huh? Are you? Tell me if it's true!"

She was just too stunned to reply at first, I think. Which made me realize I had grabbed her. And I was suddenly embarrassed as I pulled my hands back.

"Where did you hear that, Kazhuye?"

"From Arigh. Just tell me if it's true."

The Singer looked down for a few moments, then finally met my eyes again. "I am in love with someone, Kazhuye. Yes. Why do you ask?"

Reaching down, I picked up a stone and further humiliated that pink painted wagon before it ricocheted off and smacked the next wagon nearby. And yet as I backed away from her, step by step... I shook my head and grinned rather sheepishly. "Because... I wanted to say... congratulations. Before it's too late."

I turned and mounted my kaiila again... and rode off without ever looking back.
[ ... ]

December 12, 2007

How Hard Can It Be

"Tal Kaz." Arigh is a strange woman. Stranger than most. She was sitting there on the ground watching me for the longest time before she finally decided to speak. You know, as if she's never seen a man lead his kaiila to water before. Nevermind that Necessity prefers to stand in the middle of the stream.

"It's Kazhuye... and Tal."

Suddenly she was throwing snowballs at me.

"Hey now. What was that for?" The last woman to throw things at me was Sakmeta. Rocks to be precise.

"You looked frustrated with your beast, thought I'd help cool you off. Have you considered giving him a longer tether so that he doesn't go so crazy when you do let
him out?"

"No." I sniffed and just stared at her for a moment. Did women suddenly feel they knew a man's war beast better than he did? Ahh but what the hell... I wasn't gonna let her drag me into any argument over semantics. Women were just... testy that way. "And I ain't frustrated either."

"Well you got to admit you make a damn good target out there trapped by your own beast in the middle of icy waters. But I have no more ammo, so you are safe."

"I ain't trapped. I led him here." Right about then Necessity's snout came bobbing up out of the water, snorting and spraying slobber all which ways. He has such uncanny timing sometimes that I am often left to wonder if he understands Gorean fluently.

"Mmmhmm...Necessity agrees." I'm not sure exactly what she meant by this. But like I said, she is bit strange.

With a tug to the reign, I leaned a bit in the saddle as if expectantly to drive Necessity onto dry land again. But the kaiila didn't budge. Instead he snorted again and bobbed his massive head back down into the water. More loud slurps. Guess he wasn't done yet, eh?

Arigh was laughing at me by now, "Should I go get you some blankets, its liable to get cold out there tonight?"

"Don't be pokin fun at my kaiila, woman. He might bite you." Necessity's tail switched back and forth fairly rapidly. Damn beast was in a mood.

"I'm not poking fun at him. I like him. He's kinda....well....cute. All attitude and stubbornness. I think he thinks he's Tuchuk. I could bring you food too? I'm a very good cook."

Last time a woman tried to cook for me, all hell broke loose. "We already ate." Suddenly the kaiila's snout bobbed back up out of the water, and Necessity took a flying leap across the stream, landing on dry grass again. With a languid stretch, he drew downward at a verticle slant, only to rake his claws across the ground and leave deep ravines in their wake as he righted himself once again.

Arigh walked towards us, "Water and a great big stretch, feeling better there Pretty Girl?" As she reached to rub a very cold and wet snout. Then looking at me she asked, "Are you always so guarded?"

Why do people keep callin' him a fucking girl?

"What do you mean by guarded?"

"Guarded, untrusting, keeping people out before they can hurt you. Guarded."

Necessity reared back slightly and nudged the woman's hand with his snout, more interested in sniffing it than being rubbed, it seemed. And then when his curiosity was sated, he turned round and swatted her across the head with his tail as his interest went elsewhere. I of course, had to turn around in the saddle slightly to keep my focus on the woman below.

"Hurt me? Ha! I am Kazhuye of the Tuchuks and a warrior! I fear no one!"

"You fear no one huh? So you don't fear allowing people close? Joining the first fires so that you have more family? Joining the first fires so you could...I don't know...mate T'zuri?"

"I have all I need." Once again my eyes narrowed slightly upon her, as if she were testing me somehow. And what the hell? I have Necessity and Paenuria, the she-bosk. One covered wagon and one flatbed. What else does a man really need? At the mention of the singer though, I glanced away for a moment. "I expect if I get me a woman, she'll be coming to my wagon. Not the other way around."

"Yeah, you aren't guarded at all." She was patting my foot now! "You really going to let location stand in the way of love?"

I snorted and glared at the woman now. "You sure talk big for a little gal." After that I drove my boot heel into Necessity's flank, making the kaiila rear up and dance around in a half circle before crashing back down upon terra firma once again.

"Yeah, its been one of those kinds of days, I guess. Don't mean to offend."

Wheeling the beast the other way, we circled round and round the rock, much as if we were honing in upon prey on the open plains.

"What sort of day, Sleen Trainer?"

"Actually it has been more like a hand. Dealing with stupidity and not being able to do much about it, because I'm just a prospect. Having to take insults, cuz I'm just a prospect."

"A prospect of what?" I asked. "And what kinda stupidity?" Circling round and round, his concentric rings grew smaller and smaller until at last Necessity was standing right before the rock. I leaned down against the kaiila's long silk-furred neck and looked right at her. Almost like I'd just seen her for the very first time. And yep... she was definitely a woman.

"For the first fires. Woman who are supposed to be grown acting immature. And other women who should be happy acting like ungrateful spoiled brats and then being passive aggressive shit heads when you call them out on it."

Far as I knew, that pretty much summed up the entire female populace. Which is why I tend to avoid women like the plague in general. I chuckled briefly though. "But... you still wanna live there at the First Wagons. Guess that's the price, hmm?"

"Yeah, what do you want? To live alone forever? Have no sons to train up to be like you? Is a flat bed all to yourself really that much of a benefit?" She asked.

Grinning, I replied, "I don't gotta listen to women gripe." In my estimation, I have it good. While others are miserable day in and day out.

"Gonna still feel that way, if T'zuri mates someone else? I've seen the way you look at her. How hard can it be to go ask Fonce for a bride price?"

My grin faded slightly as I glanced away. From the side of my face, my jaw tightened slightly while I wound the leather reign around my fist tighter and tighter.

"How did you know her guardian was the Ubar?"

"Because the Ubar is my guardian too." She was smiling again. "He's not as scary as he seems."

I snorted, tugging Necessity back a bit. The kaiila's sidesteps were slightly zig zagged... but I did finally put a little distance between myself and the woman.

"I ain't scared of him. Sounds like you're anxious to see the Singer gone in a hurry though."

"Why would she be gone? She'd still be here. I like the little feisty singer. I've just seen you with her. I've seen you look at her. And a man doesn't look at just
any woman like that. You don't have to talk to him. You don't have to mate her. You can stay alone. That's your perogative as a Tuchuk man. Just going back to my statement of what are you going to do if it is too late?"

"I never looked at her no kinda way!" I wasn't gonna admit that shit! Not to her!! "And why? Who's courtin' her?"

"I don't know if anyone is or isn't. I've only ever seen her with you outside of the fires. But I know one thing. I spend my day playing with sleen and at the end of the day I smell like a sleen. Regardless of whether someone thinks I'm pretty or not, at the end of the day I still smell like a sleen. The singer there is beautiful and she doesn't play with sleen all day. Who you think is gonna get mated first?"

"She don't like me anyway." Oh I know the singer likes me just fine... but not that way.

"He and I have never spoken about that, so I can only assume you know that for certain or that you are trying to protect yourself from getting hurt. On either account, I don't blame you. but she sure did go a long way out of her way to make sure you were taken care of when you were a little drunk off your keister. Most don't do that for people they don't like. But sometimes one doesn't know how they feel until someone starts making them feel special."

I only snorted again. And so did Necessity, by the way. We're quite a lot alike sometimes.

"I can take care of myself."

Arigh huffed at me now. "I didn't say you couldn't take care of yourself, sheesh. I was just pointing it out."

"I don't need no help, either!" With a terse tug on the reigh, Necessity shot around in a half circle before taking off like a flaming dart sprung from a bow. Of all the outriders' kaiila... mine is the fastest. Even among all four tribes of the Wagon Peoples. And just like that, we were gone. Off to find the truth!
[ ... ]

December 11, 2007

What's A Snooker?

Days later I happened upon the blue haired slave again. She was bathing herself in the frigid stream water. The same stream I often lead my kaiila to after a long day's ride on the vast open plains.

Necessity lifted his snout and spewed water in several directions before backing away a single step, as if wary of intrusions before dipping his massive head back down for more loud slurps. He was not so much skittish as he was simply staking out his territory at the water's edge. And no one else better dare to drink while he drank! I however, merely tightened my grip on the reign, yet otherwise remained distracted with watching the blue haired slave tug a leather vest back onto her wet self. And while I was distracted with watching her, Necessity suddenly shot off in pursuit of something. Naturally with me aboard his saddle!

Necessity reared up suddenly and tore around the grassy embankment several zig-zagged turns. Almost as if he were chasing something... small and invisible on the ground. His claws dug down sharply with each turn before he doubled back and took a flying leap right over the blue-haired woman, landing on the opposite side with a crash.

Whatever it was he'd been chasing, he caught it within moments and reared upright again as the pained squeal of something small pierced the silence in the half ehn before Necessity had tossed it to the air and caught it with a snap of powerful jaws.

"Oh no!! Snooker!!!"

Accustomed to my kaiila's spur-of-the-moment antics since... forever... I glanced back at the woman once she rose to her feet and sprinted toward me. "What's a snooker?"

"Master! The Mistress T'zuri's pet! A frevet!" She looked... seriously distraught. "Master please! Please make him put it down!" But then relented for some odd reason as she looked down, "Maybe... maybe...it was another frevet?"

Hell, I hoped so too. I had not even seen the thing, it had all happened so fast! But as I leaned down against the beast's long neck and gave his snout a rather rough few pats, no coughing it loose.. Whatever he'd eaten was devoured in a single bite. Gone. Kaput.

"Well... how can we find out if it was hers?" I had a sneaking hunch though, I was about to strike out before I ever even got up to bat!
[ ... ]

December 10, 2007

What A Woman Wants

"Our actions usually run on a more emotional base of thought, which doesn't always include logic. It makes us vulnerable and soft. Exploitable. Which might be hard for a man to understand because you are the opposite."

"Well how do they think?" So a crash course in the subtleties of Venus, to make up for a lifetime of having completely shunned women. Well... excepting my she-bosk Paenuria, of course. I don't mind her in the least. There were a few women though, who had a yap on them a mile wide... and nagging voices to boot. Two of which I did my level best to avoid. And the last one to make verr's eyes at me, suddenly snubbed me and took off lickety split... that sleen trainer, Arigh.

"I don't think I can tell you correctly how a free woman thinks, Master. I have never been one, and I can't really understand where they come from." The blue haired slave woman was honest.

I had been blowing steam tendrils over the side of my bowl, listening as the blue haired woman spoke. I took another lengthy drink from the rim with a slight wince, for the paga was still at a scalding temperature... though it had cooled a wee bit. "But you are a woman. You must know what women think."

"I am a woman, yes Master, but I am wholly woman. Would you want the mother of your child, your son, to think the same way that the slave you just brutally used and abused thought?" She seemed amused by this, but with a glance around I suddenly had to wonder if everyone knew... knew that I'd recently done what I'd done to Cornwall's girl. The belled kajira. The very one he'd been hiding from Lumina for quite a few years!
[ ... ]

December 9, 2007

Diamonds For Leather





"You are Tuchuk, so to be fair, I'd have to say even one is worth far more than the belt would be."

Jaella is her name. One of the Leather Workers


][ More to Come ][
[ ... ]

December 8, 2007

A Kiss Is Just A Kiss

T'zuri came hurrying after me and reached out to capture my hand when I was right in the middle of untying Necessity's tether. Like she wanted me to stay or something. But I don't know why. She doesn't even like me.

How many times I've wanted to shake her good and hard and just tell her straight up: T'zuri, I like you, dammit. Be my woman and don't say no.

But I just couldn't come right out and say that. Not to her. It is times like these that I sorely miss my father's guidance. Of which I've been denied since adolescence. Cornwall and the other men are no good either, for they are always full of mockery and teasing. And dammit! This is important!

I stopped and glanced down at my hand. Not the one all wound up with a leather strap. But the other one... sandwiched in the Singer's hands. Damn, she has soft hands! That softness called to something hidden way deep... something I've long ago forgotten in all the years since Abigail left to join my father in the Sky. And for an instant I'd wanted nothing more than to yank my hand back and just run like hell. Run! Run for your life, Kazhuye!

But... I couldn't make my feet move. I was frozen up. Let go of my hand, Woman! Gah!!

"You never.. gave me that dagger-throwing lesson you promised, Kazhuye..."

Now? Daggers?? She wanted throwing lessons... now? My concentration was at an all time low, and I was certain if I threw any type of projectile I was liable to make a complete ass of myself and miss by a pasang!

"How do you expect I will win if I do not practice? Do you have time tomorrow, maybe?"

"Tomorrow?" Whew! "Yes... alright." Can I have my hand back now? I think I'm... melting. I tried to force a smile that was more contrite than anything... because all my teeth were showing. "Where will you find me?" I asked easily enough... before shaking my head with a slight laugh. "I mean.. where will I find you?"

She kept squeezing my hand and staring at me. "Excellent.. oh.. I don't know, I thought we could both meet by the stream? A little past the central fire's high point? Can you make it around then?"

"Yes. I'll be there, T'zuri." Anything! Anything! Can I have my hand back now?
Off the hook for tonight. I think I released a sigh of breath that sounded much too much like relief... when she finally let go of my hand.

That's when she suddenly leaned up on her tippy toes... and kissed me right on the cheek. She kissed me! "Blah blah blah..." She was talking, saying something. Her lips were moving but I could not hear what she was saying. My brain was swimming much the same as if I'd have several cups of paga. I just have no clue at all how to read women. They're so... confusing. One minute they hate you, the next they love you.

"Blah blah blah... and you have a good night then.. you too Necessity.. I'll see you both tomorrow." She turned away then and headed off. Left me standing there holding my hand against my cheek.
[ ... ]

December 7, 2007

Who Is She?

There was something different in me the next few days, even though I could scarcely remember the act itself. I was a man now. More than I'd ever been before. And I found it hard to wipe the grin off my face.

That's when I saw the Singer again. She was with another woman... "Tal, Kazhuye! This is Kaioba. Kaioba, Kazhuye. Get down off that kaiila and come be social."

I looked them both over with a grin as I slid down from Necessity's saddle. I'd tethered him good and tight to one of the wagon wheels there... on the off chance I'd run in to that crabby Cana woman again. The one who likes to yell at me everytime she sees me.

How interesting it was the way Cana suddenly hurried right over then, just the very moment she saw me... and with some little kid in her arms too. It may be a strange thing to think... but I'm almost positive she was hoping Necessity would trample that little kid she had in her arms. She seemed real disappointed too, when she saw me tethering Necessity. And here last time she was yellin', she seemed so gung-ho to make it appear as if she really cared about all the Tuchuk children.

I stayed clean away from her, thinkin' she must have a few too many dustballs and cobwebs cloggin up her mind. She never looks happy. Never smiles, that I can see. But oh well... enough of her.

I hunkered down near the fire, right between T'zuri and Kaioba. You know... to be social and stuff. And that's when the two women got some bug in their underpants... poking me and asking who she was.

"Who is who?"

"Your new girlfriend, Kazhuye.
Who is she?" Both of them started to laugh and poke me some more.

"I ain't got no girlfriend."

"C'mon, we can tell by the look on your face. Can't we?" Kaioba winked at T'zuri, sending secret subliminal code back and forth to each other.

"Yes we can. So who is she, Kazhuye. We want to meet her."

"Well you can't meet her!" I was getting irritated by now. "I mean... there is no woman to meet!"

They were relentless with their laughing and poking, until I finally got up and left them. Bah! Who needs that? "C'mon, Necessity. Let's go home."
[ ... ]

December 5, 2007

Cornwall's Cure

There are three occasions when men drink.
And only three:
When lamenting over a woman.
When escaping from a woman.
When trying to out drink all his buddies.

It is for the first reason that men are apt to bond more strongly and come to the rescue of the one who is lamenting.

Now I never once mentioned the Singer's name to Cornwall and the other guys as we sat around the campfire filling our bellies with white lightning and the air with lewd and badly sung songs. I didn't even have to mention her name... nor even the fact I'd recently had my heart broken. They just knew. It's a thing between men that women would never understand... mostly because they're too busy all the time flappin' their lips to hear or see anything else.

Now at some point between all that drinkin' and singin' my mind gets a little fuzzy, and I just can't really remember what happened all too clearly.

"Oh Master! Oh oh ohhhh... yes yes yes!"

Behind me there was a whole lot of cheering and shouting and laughing going on. But underneath me... that belled kajira I'd seen runnin' through camp and stealing meat ever so often from the pot Mrs. Cornwall was bent over cooking in.

"Oh Master! You're the best I've ever had!"

From the time I'd been thrust upon her, until the time I rolled over and got off again, I think all of three ihn had passed. And suddenly I was being clapped on the back by all the other men... who seemed really overjoyed about it. Did they know? Could they have possibly known? I've never told a soul... because that's just not something a man admits to anyone... let alone other men.

But as I got up and staggered around a bit, tryin to hike my britches back up... I looked down at the naked wench on the ground with a bit of a grin. The best she ever had, eh?


Now I've heard rumor that some women fake it. But I could tell... she was for real! Just look at her! And I'd put her that way. That's right. Me! Kazhuye of the Tuchuks!
[ ... ]

December 4, 2007

Facing The Music

It took more than half a day to finally reach the Tuchuk wagons, and yet I urged Necessity to run faster. Faster and faster still. We didn't slow up one bit once we reached the obstacle of wagons. It was for the First Wagons I was headed. We charged right in, Necessity and I, and lept right over the big dung fire in the midst. It didn't take so long for me to find the Singer... because she screamed and threw herself down to the ground right along with another woman, scattering out of the way of Necessity's clawed feet.

"Kazhuye! What are you doing here?"

I'd come back to be a man. Wasn't it obvious?

"T'zuri, I'm here to offer my wagons to you. And your two mamas, too. You know... just in case..." Just in case your reputation is tarnished beyond repair. Just in case... you wanna be my woman.

"Just in case what, Kazhuye?" She looked kinda mad at me as she and the other gal dragged themselves off the ground and brushed dirt off their faces and dresses.

"Well you know... just in case... you got nowhere else to go, Singer." Damn! She's hard to talk to. I keep tryin' to tell her... how much I kinda like her. But she makes it so hard.

"Well, thank you, Kazhuye. But I would never dream of it." She smiled when she said this to me. Smiled on the outside... but she was laughing on the inside. You're the last man on Gor I'd ever wanna be with. Hahahahahahaa!

Right soon after that, the older woman, Cana, who likes to yell at me... got in my face and started yellin' at me again. Something about my poorly trained kaiila and endangering small children.

I wasn't meanin' no disrepect but I didn't quite hear much of what she was saying. She just kept getting right between me and T'zuri... cutting us off.

"I do appologize, ma'am... Necessity ain't used to bein' around old ladies."

I never saw an angrier, twisted up face in all my life. What? What did I do wrong, now? When I tried to look past her again... T'zuri was already long gone.
[ ... ]

December 1, 2007

Hello Sky

"Yes, I know I've earned my right to sleep in my own wagon for a month. But being that it's my time, I thought I'd spend it out here with You."

I planned to remain out here for the entire month. Away from everything. Especially an ass kickin I knew would be comin' if I went back.

But you know you should not leave your wagon and your bosk unattended for so long, Kazhuye. It's a little presumtuous to think Cornwall's woman enjoys looking after your possessions when you should be home.

"But she likes that stuff!" Why the hell was she always naggin' and pesterin' me if she didn't like it??

She has a big heart, Kazhuye. And you're just taking advantage now.

I sat atop my kaiila with both arms crossed over my chest now. Not convinced that taking advantage of Mrs. Cornwall was good enough reason to get on home.

You're not being a man, either.

"What??! What do you mean I'm not being a man! I'm out here talking to you, ain't I?" Everyone knew damn well that women didn't talk to the
Sky. Only men!

You left a young girl to face trouble all by herself... the trouble you caused.

"That's her fault! She didn't wanna come with me when I told her to!"

No, Kazhuye. She is simply more brave than you... a Tuchuk Warrior. -tsk tsk-

Sometimes... I really hate the Sky!
[ ... ]

November 24, 2007

Run Away With Me

Once the Singer had gotten herself dressed, she left my wagon and started heading off... to her own wagons, I knew. Out of compulsion I walked with her. Hoping perhaps to make her see things reasonably.

"Come away with me, T'zuri." It is best to just run like hell when you're in that much trouble. A month on the open plains and they'd forget all about her... about us.

"You have nothing to hide. You only helped me, you know.. or did you.. enjoy looking at me when I was naked?"

I had a month off from my outrider patrol duty afterall. I could spend it out on the Plains if I so desired. Who is there to tell me I have to spend it at home inside my wagon? No one. No mama, no wife. Not even Mrs. Cornwall can boss me that way. Even if she does try to nag me a little whenever she gets the chance.

"Well... I'm going anyway." With or without you, girlie girl. And I had everything to hide! Especially if I wanted to get over all these thoughts continually plaguing me... Naked. Boobs. Belly. Thighs. Naked in my furs. Naked inside my clothes. "If you want to stay naked... I mean here!" Shit... hate when those verbal slips happen! Maybe she didn't notice? "You go right ahead."

"You did like seeing me naked, didn't you? That's why you want to leave so badly! Well, you can go Kazhuye.. but I have to stay here."

Ohhh! She was trying to guilt me with shame. And it worked. Strange that! Even though I cannot possibly be the only man alive who likes the way a naked woman looks! Wondering what she feels like; smells like, etc. And here she was dogging me for it too!

I hung my head down. Busted! She doesn't like me anymore. She is disgusted with me. I can tell. And this only furthered my need for some man space. Man time. To do man things. I turned around suddenly and took off running... back to the outer outskirts of the vast Tuchuk wagon camp where my Necessity was tethered near my own wagons.
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November 22, 2007

Do You Have To Tell Him?

"Who cares for you now... with your papa gone?" Men don't really need women, you see. But women... they sure need men. Don't they?

"Well.. The Ubar is my guardian, if that's what you mean. I live with Mama and an elderly woman who I care for.. she is Letti."

I had been younger than her when I'd lost my own father. A fledgling adolescent at the age of fourteen. I'd only just earned my name and my very first courage scar when it had happened. And right up to that point, I'd been at my father's side almost constantly. We two were inseperable. Make that three... counting Necessity, who'd been the elder Year Keeper's mount for a few decades. When he died, I didn't have the luxury of running to find another man for help. I was forced to become that man. Overnight. It was do or die.


Now the mention of the Ubar being her guardian made me stop dead in my tracks. For there she was, wearing my clothes after having been out all night long. All night long, drinking paga and... being generally naked in my wagon!

What is it, Kazhuye? You knew I sang for the First Wagons, yes? I'm sure I mentioned it before."

"Well..." Now Mrs. Cornwall's snooping might've been easily fended off, despite her apparant reluctance to believe nothing had happened between us all night in my wagon. Despite the fact T'zuri had spilled out of it early next morning... dressed in my clothes! But another man? Pfft. He wasn't going to buy it. Men always believed the worst... mosreso when it came to their own dotters. Or... little girls they guarded like surrogate fathers.

"Are you... do you have to tell him?" Naturally her mother and the other woman she lived with, might demand an answer. But was she gonna tell her guardian... the Ubar??

I was already backing away from her, dreading deep down the answer had to be 'yes!' I knew I'd be in for an ass kickin... sleeping all night with a woman whose guardian is the Ubar himself!
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November 21, 2007

How Much Did You See?

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"What are you looking at, Kazhuye?" She had that accusing look on her face as she crossed her arms over her chest after turning her back to me and rummaging through my clothing... apparently looking for her clothes. She gave up and put on my shirt. My only other shirt besides the one I was still wearing.

"My shirt... " My gaze snapped right back to her face. "Nothing!" I wasn't starting at her chest! Alright, yes I was.

Clothes made of leather might take... ohhh... about a month to dry. "Do you think you can get them on?" Did she know how... beautiful she was... wearing my shirt??? Evil..evil. I reached down and kind of... tossed her wet things to her. No way in hell I'd go near though, and actually hand them to her. Afterward I turned about face. I expected she'd want a little privacy while changing into them. Or... trying to, anyway.

"How many times.. are you going to say.. nothing? Just let me get dressed and I'll walk home." She paused for a few ehn "Do you think I could.. borrow your clothes?"


"T'zuri... I'm sorry. I saw you... and I didn't mean to." Time for truth while I had my back turned to her. "I think it was an accident." Drunk or not, I was sure she had not meant for me to see her naked. "Do you remember? Anything?" I peeked back, very slightly turning my head to catch but a mere glimpse of her from the corner of my eyes. "You... you don't have to leave."

I wanted her to go. But I wanted her to stay. I've never been so jumbled in all my life. For the first time ever, not knowing what I wanted.

"What did you .. see? I don't remember anything that happened after we got here, Kazhuye."

She caught me peeking, but didn't yell at me.

"Everything?" I turned my eyes back to the wagon wall again. "You drank a lot of paga... for a girl." I let her off the hook with a plausible alibi. Of course. She was just drunk. Didn't know what she was doing. The first woman I'd come even remotely close to... well... nevermind. She didn't remember, and so it was as if it never happened. But how in the world had I wound up curled right beside her in the night?
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November 20, 2007

Who's Been Sleeping In My Bed

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I do not remember ever falling asleep. I only remember waking. In the usual place.


"Kazhuye! What are you doing in my bed?!"

But that was not the usual sound I awoke too. I pulled to rub the sand from my eyes, only to find my arms and legs quite tangled around... T'zuri's. And me... staring at the shining gold ring in her nose!

"I didn't do anything!" Did I? Hard to think straight when you're full of morning grog. I never pulled away from someone so fast in my life... only to retreat to the far side of the wagon again.

It was then that the Singer realized she was in my bed.
"Kazhuye! Where are my clothes??!"
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Keeping Watch

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I could not make her sleep outside. Nor could I take her home to her own wagon in such a compromised state, (even if I knew where it was!) Who would ever believe me that nothing happened? Come to think of it, I wasn't sure I wanted people's disbelief. Especially Cornwall's! No, it was best she stayed here and out of site. That way no one asked any questions that I'd have to explain. And that way, neither of our reputations were laid to the line.



I reached over and closed the fur around the Singer to hide her nakedness before glancing around to make sure no one had seen what she'd just done. Somehow... I knew I would be blamed for getting the woman drunk and taking advantage of her. And damn! She sure was pretty without her clothes on. Prettier than I ever imagined she'd be. Not that I have been undressing her in my mind all the time since I've known her... because I haven't! At least... I don't think I have.

From the doorway I watched T'zuri sleep for quite a long time it seemed. And all the while I could not get the image of her... nakedness... out of my head. Nor that fact that she was naked in my bed. My bed! Naked.
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November 19, 2007

Women and Paga

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T'zuri spilled out of my wagon wrapped in my fur, only to stumble across the wagon camp enclosure to the fire again, and plop right on down to the ground. Following her cue, I too, crouched down and handed her the cup of paga she had wanted. And then I spoke as gently as possible to her, whispering while she gulped down her second cup, "You should go back inside, Singer. You're naked."

I didn't want to embarrass her or anything.



"What do you mean I'm naked? I not naked, Kazhuye."

The Singer suddenly opened the fur she'd had wrapped around her and stared down at her naked self in disbelief. And I stared too. I... could not help it!
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November 18, 2007

House Guest

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When I had returned, I stood there holding the second cup of paga... watching in near disbelief as she crawled right up into my wagon. Ahh hell... this was just not good. No... not good at all. Was I gonna have to camp outside now? I'd sure looked forward to the creature comforts of my own wagon, after having been out on the furthest edges of the plains for at least four hands. For the moment, I simply stood there. Holding the cup. And waiting.



That's when the leather flaps parted and the Singer started throwing clothes out onto the ground. Not my clothes, but hers! She was stripping down to bare inside my wagon, and there I was, still standing there with her untouched second cup of paga. Was she... moving in?
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Drinking With Men

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I felt doubly bad now. First for the fact Necessity had been the culprit in making the girl cry. Secondly... for damn near drowning her. But more and more she seemed to give in to the numbing effects of the icy cold water she had fallen into, losing her coherence and the abilty to form complete sentences.

I don't know what I was thinking. I don't know what came over me. But after I mounted my kaiila, I reached down and hauled the Singer right up into the saddle with me where I wrapped her in the blanket. I did this even though she had once said she did not ever want to ride in the same saddle as me.



I took T'zuri home with me, because I did not know where her own wagon was. I do not think she was able to even tell me where, either. When we reached the group of wagons in my own camp, I hopped down and waited for her to hop down too, unsure whether I should touch her again. You know, in case she might accuse me of being some kind of letch.

"I need help, Kazhuye. I can't feel my legs." Touch me, it's alright.

For just a brief moment I had her in my arms, and I do not know what I was thinking, nor what came over me. Because... I liked it.

But I put the Singer down by the still-smoldering campfire, around which others had already either passed out cold or stumbled on home. And then I gave her paga. Only half a cup though, for the other half I drank myself.

The Singer gulped it down and asked for more. I wondered if she'd had paga before.
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